If I Can't Have Love, I Want Power

Oh, the loneliest girl in town
Is bought for pennies a price
We dress her up in lovely gowns
She's easy on the eyes
Her soul is black and it's a fact
That her sneer will eat you alive
And the buyer always brings her back
Because all she does is cry

So take what you want, take what you can
Take what you please, don't give a damn
Ask for forgiveness, never permission
Take what you want, take what you can
Take what you please, don't givе a damn
It's in the blood and this is tradition
Ooh-ooh

Oh, the loneliеst girl in town
Was bought for plenty a price
Well, they dress her up in golden crowns
His smile hides a lie
She smiles back, but it's a fact
That her fear will eat her alive
Well, she got the life that she wanted
But now all she does is cry

Take what you want, take what you can
Take what you please, don't give a damn
Ask for forgiveness, never permission
Take what you want, take what you can
Take what you please, don't give a damn
It's in the blood and this is tradition

You can't take it back, it's good as gone
Well, flesh amnesiac, this is your song
And I hope what's left will
last all summer long
And they said that boys were boys,
but they were wrong

Take what you want, take what you can
Take what you please, don't give a damn
Ask for forgiveness, never permission
Take what you want, take what you can
Take what you please, don't give a damn
It's in the blood and this is tradition
Take what you want, take what you can
Take what you please, don't give a damn
Ask for forgiveness, never permission
Take what you want, take what you can
Take what you please, don't give a damn
It's in the blood and this is tradition

(It's good as gone)

Don't call me by my name
All of this is temporary
Watch as I slip away for your sake
All of this is temporary

Well, maybe I could hold you in the dark
You won't even notice me depart
Secondhand thread in a secondhand bed
With a second man's head
Leavin' through the door without a word
You won't even notice, little bird
Better off dead, so I reckon I'm headed to Hell instead

So don't wait for me, don't wait for me, wait-ah
It's not a happy ending
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me, wait-ah
It's not a happy ending

Jesus needed a three-day weekend
To sort out all his bullshit, figurе out the treason
I've been sеarching for a fortified defense
Four to five reasons
But Jesus, you've got better lips than Judas
I could keep your bed warm, otherwise, I'm useless
I don't really mean it 'cause who the fuck would choose this?

Well, maybe I could hold you in the dark
You won't even notice me depart
Secondhand thread in a secondhand bed
With a second man's head
Leavin' through the door without a word
You won't even notice, little bird
Better off dead, so I reckon I'm headed to Hell instead

So don't wait for me, don't wait for me, wait-ah
It's not a happy ending
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me, wait-ah
It's not a happy ending
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me, wait-ah
It's not a happy ending
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me, wait-ah

All of this is temporary
All of this is temporary
All of this is temporary
All of this is temporary

Dark, you won't even notice me depart
Secondhand thread in a second man's bed
With a second man's head
All of this is temporary
All of this is temporary
All of this is—

I'm only whatever you make me
And you make me more
and more a villain every day
But you don't know, you reap, you sow
Whatever you give to me,
from yourself, you take
Well, if you're a hater, then hate the creator
It's in your image I'm made

One eye open and one eye closed
'Cause I'll hang myself if you give me rope
I lost all my faith and lost all hope
That everything means anything at all

One eye broken and one eye bruised
'Cause I gave myself away for you
You liar, you don't love me too
It's easy for you after all
My heart is massive, but it's empty
A permanent part of me,
that innocent artery
Is gaspin' for some real attention
Some undivided hypertension
Tell it, "Quiet down, you're bein' loud"
But it beats harder every time
you come around
But do you love the sound?

I sleep with one eye open
and one eye closed
'Cause I'll hang myself if you give me rope
I lost all my faith and lost all hope
That everything means anything at all
One eye broken and one eye bruised
'Cause I gave myself away for you
You liar, you don't love me too
It's easy for you after all

Losing you is easier than
Lying to myself that you love me
Losing you is easier than
Lying to myself that you love me
Losing you is easier than
Lying to myself that you love me
Losing you is easier than
Lying to myself

I sleep with one eye open
and one eye closed
'Cause I'll hang myself if you give me rope
I lost all my faith and lost all hope
That everything means anything at all
One eye broken and one eye bruised
'Cause I gave myself away for you
You liar, you don't love me too
It's easy for you after all

Ooh, ooh

Well, I'm perfection
when it comes to first impressions
Well, I romanticize and then I get to stressin'
Big brain like I'm teachin' it a lesson
Baby, it's a blessin', yeah
You got me thinkin' that I was too mean
Well, everything that I say, I believe
Tuck a knife with my heart up my sleeve
And change like a season, reason for nothin'
I am disruptive, I've been corrupted
And by now,
I don't need a fuckin' introduction
I been gone 'cause
I been on this road too long

You know I get too caught up in a moment
I can't call it love if I show it
I just fuck things up if you noticed
Have you noticed? Tell me,
have you noticed?
I get too caught up in a moment
I can't fall in love if I show it
I just fuck things up if you noticed
Have you noticed?
Tell me, have you noticed?

Now, I'm wonderin'
if I ever wanted to hold you
It never mattered if I owned you
'Cause you'd let anybody
with a body control you
And you know it too
You got me feelin' like I been too mean
And everything that I say, I believe
Tuck a knife with my heart up my sleeve
And fuck like a demon, do it like nothin'
I am disgustin', I've been corrupted
And by now,
I don't need no help to be destructive
I been, gone, yeah,
I been on this road too long

You know I get too caught up in a moment
I can't call it love if I show it
I just fuck things up if you noticed
Have you noticed?
Tell me, have you noticed?
I get too caught up in a moment
I can't fall in love 'cause I'm focused
I just fuck things up if you noticed
Have you noticed?
Tell me, have you noticed?

The more that you give away
The more that you have
More that you give away
More that you have
The more that you give away
The more that you have,
the more that they take
(More that you have,
the more that they take)

I feel lighter in the waistline
With no hands around me,
no spit in my teeth
No, I'm not your daydream,
I won't have your baby
Stop 'cause you're killin' my vibe
It's a shot in the dark,
I'm not a walk in the park
I come loaded with the safety switched off
This girl is a gun
and we've been havin' some fun
And I can show you if you turn the lights on

I keep waitin' for luck to come
swallow me up
I feel better when the boys stop callin'
I keep fallin' in love and this measurin' cup
Is overflowin' with the same damn problems

This girl is a gun,
before you know it, it's done
And you'll be wishin' that you
crossed your fingers
Oh, but God,
is it fun when you can have more than one
So let me show you
how to touch my trigger

My newest baby's testin' me lately
Makin' me crazy from mornin' to evenin'
I cannot take it, I love it, I break it
Need it, leave it if I believe
it's a waste of my
Time is a blessin', to me, it's a lesson
And I can't be stressin' to give you attention
'Cause, oh, it's never enough,
so I'm givin' you up
And you'll be better with a nice girl, darlin'

I keep waitin' for luck to come
swallow me up
I feel better when the boys stop callin'
I keep fallin' in love and this measurin' cup
Is overflowin'
with the same damn problems (Yeah)

This girl is a gun,
before you know it, it's done
And you'll be wishin'
that you crossed your fingers
Oh, but God, is it fun
when you can have more than one
So let me show you
how to touch my trigger

I keep waitin'
for luck to come swallow me up
I feel better when the boys stop callin'
I keep fallin' in love and this measurin' cup
Is overflowin' with the same damn problems

This girl is a gun,
before you know it, it's done
And you'll be wishin'
that you crossed your fingers
Oh, but God, is it fun
when you can have more than one
So let me show you
how to touch my trigger

I don't know what you want from me
When I'm sunburnt lips and summer feet
I'm tattered like these Levi's jeans
Punch-wasted on redundancy

Now what the fuck does all this mean?
You know I'm still somebody's daughter, see
I spilled the milk you left for me
My tears are falling flawlessly now

Go on and be a big girl
You asked for this now
Go on and be a big girl
Well, everybody's gonna drown you out
Go on and be a big girl
You asked for this now
You better show 'em why you talk so loud

You wished upon a falling star
And then left behind the avant-garde
For lemonade in crystal glasses
Picket fences, file taxes
Who the hell is in your bed?
You better kiss goodnight and give some head
And then next the morning comes instead
Well is this the life that lies ahead now?

Go on and be a big girl
You asked for this now
Go on and be a big girl
Well, everybody's gonna drown you out
Go on and be a big girl
You asked for this now
You better show 'em why you talk so loud

Go on and be a big girl
You asked for this now
Go on and be a big girl
Well, everybody's gonna drown you out
Go on and be a big girl
You asked for this now
You better show 'em why you talk so loud

I want my cake on a silver platter
I want a fistful in my hands
I want a beautiful boy's despondent laughter
I want to ruin all my plans
I want a fist around my throat
I want to cry so hard I choke
But I want everything I asked for

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Really can't remember where I left my spine
Carryin' my body in a bag for dimes
Hidden in the pages of the
New York Times at home
And maybe I'll be better if I take my meds
Ain't a doubleheader if you lose your head
Try the medication that I bought instead
It's workin' for a little,
but there's not much left
Darling, don't you weep
There's a place for me
Somewhere we can sleep
See you in your dreams
Ever since a little girl, I found it sweet
Drivin' past a graveyard
on a lonesome street
All the little flowers
gave me somethin' to believe in
Never knew the feelin' of a stable home
Been a couple years of livin' on the road
Couldn't really tell you
where they'd leave a stone
To visit me when I am dead and gone
Darlin', don't you weep
There's a place for me
Somewhere we can sleep
I'll see you in your dreams
Darlin', don't you cry
Head fast toward the light
Foolish men have tried
But only you have shown me
how to love bein' alive
Until it's time to see the light
I'll make my own with you each night
I'll kidnap all the stars and I will
keep them in your eyes
I'll wrap them up in velvet twine
And hang 'em from a fishin' line
So I can see them anytime I like
Darlin', don't you weep
There's a place for me
Somewhere we can sleep
I'll see you in your dreams
Darlin', don't you cry
Head fast toward the light
Foolish men have tried
But only you have shown me
how to love bein' alive

가사Well I won't die for love
But I've got a body here to bury
And if truth be told, it's scary
'Cause my shoulders are heavy already

And yeah, I know
The parts of myself that I've hated
And I can't tell which ones are mine
And which I created

But I won't die for love
But ever since I met you
You could have my heart
And I would break it for you

And I won't die for love
But ever since I met you
You could have my heart
And I would break it for you

Take one in the temple
My tongue is a vessel
I try to be careful with
The thing inside my chest
You shoot for the memory
So you can forget me
I'd leave if you let me, oh

But I won't die for love
But ever since I met you
You could have my heart
And I would break it for you

Please don't leave (I'm running out of time to tell you)
Don't leave me in the shape you left me (I'm running out of things that I regret)
Please don't leave (I'm running of time to tell you)
Don't leave me in the shape you left me (I'm running out of things that I regret)
Please don't leave
Don't leave me in the shape you left me (you took me)
Please don't leave
Just leave me in the place you found me
Safe and soundly

I won't die for love
But ever since I met you
You could have my heart
And I would break it for you

I won't die for love
But ever since I met you
You could have my heart
And I would break it for you

She told me "Open your mouth"
She said "I've got a surprise"
And so I opened it wide
And then she crawled inside
She's on the tip of my tongue
She's on the top of my thighs
And if I searched a thousand miles I'd be dying to find

Between my fingers
She leaves then she lingers
If she's gonna go
Well then I'm going with her
I know that I won't forget

She was sweet like honey
But all I can taste is the blood in my mouth
And the bitterness in goodbye
Dripping like honey
Down the back of my throat and out the front of my mind
And now she's impatient and I'm complacent
With just a little taste of wasting time
Looking for honey
But she stings like she means it
She's mean and she's mine

Out and about
Without a reason or rhyme
And now she's dancing on a table
And she spins on a dime
She's hell in a basket, just making a racket
I love every second, it's fucking fantastic
Good things aren't easy to get
I know that I won't regret

She was sweet like honey
And all I can taste is the blood in my mouth
And the bitterness in goodbye
Dripping like honey
Down the back of my throat and on the front of my mind
And well she's impatient and I'm complacent
With just a little taste of wasting time
Looking for honey
But she stings like she means it
She's mean and she's mine

Between my fingers
She leaves then she lingers
If she's gonna go
Well then I'm going with her
And I know that I won't forget

She was sweet like honey
But all I can taste is the blood in my mouth
And the bitterness in goodbye
Dripping like honey
Down the back of my throat and on the front of your mind
And well she's impatient and I'm complacent
With just a little taste of wasting time
Looking for honey
But she stings like she means it
She's mean and she's mine

"You do not"

"You do not"

It's the thing in your thighs when you're lonely at night
Scroll though your phone getting high off the light
Numb in your chest when you close the blinds
Repose in time
And you tell yourself you're fine
But you

Sabotage the things you love the most
Camouflage so you can feed the lie that you're composed

This is the voice in your head that says
"You do not want this"
This is the ache that says
"You do not want him"
This is the glimmer of light that you're keeping alive when you tell yourself
"Bet I could fuck him"

Why do you need love so badly?
Bet it's because of her daddy
Bet she was brutal and bratty
Bet that she'll never be happy
I bet that you're right
And I'll show you in time
But I

Sabotage the things I love the most
Camouflage so I can feed the lie that I'm composed

I've got a monster inside me
That eats personality types
She is constantly changing her mind on the daily
Think that she hates me
I'm feeling it lately
Might have to trick her and treat her
To seventy capsules or fly to a castle
So at least we could say that we died being traveled
Cultured and flattered
And then I could trap her
But what does it matter

"You do not want this"
This is the voice in her head that says
"You do not want him"
This is that space in your bed that says
"Bet I could fuck him"
Isn't it lonely?
These are the standards
To which you could hold me
Think that you know me
You think that you could if you hold me
Think you could try to console me
But I do not know me
No, I do not know me
'Cause I
'Cause I

Sabotage the things I love the most
Camouflage so I can feed the lie that I'm composed
"You do not want this"
Sabotage the things I love the most
"You do not want this"
Camouflage so I can feed the lie that I'm composed
"You do not want this"
"You do not want this"
"You do not"

(I am not a woman, I'm a God)
(I am not a martyr, I'm a problem)
(I am not a legend, I'm a fraud)
(Keep your heart, 'cause I already)

Every day I've got a smile where my frown goes
A couple bodies in the garden where the grass grows
I take 'em with me to the grave in a suitcase
Maybe I could be a different human in a new place

Oh
I just wanna feel something, tell me where to go
'Cause everybody knows something I don't wanna know
So I'll stay right here 'cause I'm better all alone
Yeah, I'm better all alone

I am not a woman, I'm a God
I am not a martyr, I'm a problem
I am not a legend, I'm a fraud
So keep your heart, 'cause I already got one

I am not a woman, I'm a God
I am not a martyr, I'm a problem
I am not a legend, I'm a fraud
Keep your heart, 'cause I already

Every morning, got a hollow where my heart goes
I never listen, but I see you with my eyes closed
I know you, I remember from the grass stain
Maybe I could be a better human with a new name

Oh
I just wanna feel something, tell me where to go
'Cause everybody knows something I don't wanna know
So, I'll stay right here cause I'm better all alone
Yeah, I'm better all alone

I am not a woman, I'm a God
I am not a martyr, I'm a problem
I am not a legend, I'm a fraud
So keep your heart, 'cause I already got one

I am not a woman, I'm a God
I am not a martyr, I'm a problem
I am not a legend, I'm a fraud
Keep your heart, 'cause I already

I'm ready to leave it
I'll go when I feel it
Got caught both hands on the smoking gun
I try, but I need it
It's hard, but I feel it
And it really does hurt when you love someone

Oh
I just wanna feel something, tell me where to go
'Cause everybody knows something I don't wanna know
So I'll stay right here 'cause I'm better all alone
Yeah, I'm better all alone

I am not a woman, I'm a God
I am not a martyr, I'm a problem
I am not a legend, I'm a fraud
So keep your heart, 'cause I already got one

I am not a woman, I'm a God
I am not a martyr, I'm a problem
I am not a legend, I'm a fraud
Keep your heart, 'cause I already got one

From a tender age I was cursed with rage
Came swinging like a fist inside a batting cage
I went swimming with the devil at the bottom of a lake
And he left me there by my lonesome

He was tall and mean with venom eyes so green
Wanted reconciliation, but my tongue was in my teeth
I couldn't find the floor, so I was kickin' with my feet
But they weren't there, they were stolen

There is a lighthouse in the
Middle of the deep end
I'm still standing on the shore line
And nobody hears me scream
And I'll lure you like a landslide
And I'll show you lovely things
If you rescue me but they'll make believe
The lighthouse by the sea

I met a sailor on a ship with promise in his eyes
He kissed me on the mouth and dug his fingers in my thighs
But a sailor ain't a savior 'cause they only tell you lies
So I left him there till the sunrise

Well, the waves were tall and they were crashing down
He's laying in the water begging God to let him drown
So I showed him all my teeth and then I laughed out loud
'Cause I never wanted saving, I just wanted to be found

There is a lighthouse in the
Middle of the deep end
I'm still stranded on the shore line
And nobody hears me scream
And I'll lure you like a landslide
And I'll show you lovely things
If you rescue me but they'll make believe
The lighthouse by the sea

Well, that should teach a man to mess with me
He was never seen again
And I'm still wandering the beach
And I'm glad I met the devil
'Cause he showed me I was weak
And a little piece of him is in a little piece of me

There is a lighthouse in the
Middle of the deep end
I'm still stranded on the shore line
And nobody hears me scream
And I'll lure you like a landslide
And I'll show you lovely things
If you rescue me but they'll make believe
The lighthouse by the sea

And the waves come crashing down
And the waves come crashing down
And the waves come crashing down (And the waves come crashing down)
And the waves come crashing down (And the waves come crashing down)
And the waves come crashing down (And the waves come crashing down)
And the waves come crashing down (And the waves come crashing down)
And the waves come crashing down (And the waves come crashing down)
And the waves come crashing down (And the waves come crashing down)

I get
Undertones of sadness when I think about the moments
That I never got to spend with you
I can't decide
If I love you more in morning or I love you more in night
With its luminous lux tides, maybe in the daylight
All its pretty madness and the complicated status 'cause the moon don't pick sides
And the sun won't resign until you're by my side
Because the longing leads to leaving
And the loving leads to bleeding and your beauty is a blessing
And I never got to tell you how
I love the way my eyes make yours look green too

I think we could live forever
In each others faces 'cause I'll always see my youth in you
And if we don't live forever
Maybe one day we'll trade places
Darling, you will bury me before I bury you
Before I bury you

I'll never know
If there's danger in confession
Or it's memory that presses like a blade against my throat
Another word and I could choke
But what's worse?
Telling you my feelings or to die without revealing
That you crawled inside my head and set a fire there, instead
Letting all my insecurity
Devour me with certainty
That love is just a currency, so take my pockets
Take me whole
Take my life and take my soul, wrap me in a wedding ring
You know I swear I'd give you anything

And I think we could live forever
In each other's faces 'cause I'll always see my youth in you
And if we don't live forever
Maybe one day we'll trade places
Darling, you will bury me before I bury you
Before I bury you

Way down a dark alleyway
Somewhere in the Garden State
A girl from California waits
She has my name but not my face

And I tried to let her be someone
Hoping when the morning comes
She's not another hit and run
But everybody knows

That people disappear here, ah
People disappear here, ah
People disappear here, ah
People disappear

So, let's say, for goodness sake
That she cleans it up and finds her way
But a child can't affect her fate
And you pay, and you pay, and you pay

And now, maybe if you see someone
Hoping when the evening comes
You're not another hit and run
But everybody knows

That people disappear here, ah
People disappear here, ah
People disappear here, ah
People disappear

I hurt myself to make sure I exist
I pinch myself to make sure that I'm real
I hurt myself to make sure I exist
I need someone to tell me how I feel

'Cause people disappear here, ah
People disappear here, ah
People disappear here, ah
People disappear here

(People disappear here, ah)
(People disappear here, ah)
(People disappear here, ah)
(People disappear here, ah)
(People disappear here, ah)
(People disappear here, ah)

Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
If I shall die before I 'wake
I pray the Lord my soul to take

I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

I've tasted blood and it is sweet
I've had the rug pulled beneath my feet
I've trusted lies and trusted men
Broke down and put myself back together again
Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
Collected the pieces and picked out a dagger
I've pinched my skin in between my two fingers
And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors

"Come on, little lady, give us a smile"
No, I ain't got nothin' to smile about
I got no one to smile for, I waited a while for
A moment to say I don't owe you a goddamn thing

I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night
That I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night

No, I won't smile, but I'll show you my teeth
And I'ma let you speak if you just let me breathe
I've been polite, but won't be caught dead
Lettin' a man tell me what I should do in my bed
Keep my exes in check in my basement
'Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent
I could play nice or I could be a bully
I'm tired and angry, but somebody should be

"Come on, little lady, give us a smile"
No, I ain't got nothin' to smile about
I got no one to smile for, I waited a while for
A moment to say I don't owe you a goddamn thing

I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'd rather be a real nightmare than die unaware, yeah
Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers

I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night
That I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night